1) Mother, brother, fighting. Then, they start to bleed out of their mouths, and stop fighting. They freak out because of the blood that is just pouring out of their mouths, almost gushing. They then begin to cry.
2) I am not sure what was going on, but I saw Robin and David somewhere. We were both wearing yellow glasses.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Friday, August 8, 2008
1) I had a dream where I was in high school or something and I was teaching a science course, or auditing one so that I could later on teach. I remember I wasn't sure about some science fact the teacher had said and I was very upset that I thought she was teaching falsehoods. Then I went to another teacher to ask what the correct fact was, and it turned out to be Mary Nihjout from the Howard Hughes program, hahaha. She confirmed that I was right and the other teacher was wrong.
2) ill try and remember this dream. it comes and goes - i just know i had one.
3) I don't want to get into the details of this dream, but essentially it was a fantasy (nonsexual) of a social situation that I wish would occur but I know is futile to wish for. It was essentially like a perfect romantic outcome, and all my worries were washed away for the time this dream lasted, but upon waking up I realized how unrealistic and illogical it all was. Overall it made me very sad.
2) ill try and remember this dream. it comes and goes - i just know i had one.
3) I don't want to get into the details of this dream, but essentially it was a fantasy (nonsexual) of a social situation that I wish would occur but I know is futile to wish for. It was essentially like a perfect romantic outcome, and all my worries were washed away for the time this dream lasted, but upon waking up I realized how unrealistic and illogical it all was. Overall it made me very sad.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Lucid!
So I have always wanted to really have a lucid dream. I have come close before, but I woke up too fast. This time, I stayed in the dream. This is how it went...
The first thing I remember is that I took all my clothes off in a moment of desperation, frustration, and a need for total freedom. I then proceeded to run outside, where I found myself on the Duke campus, and leaving my friends behind, I went streaking throughout campus, including the loop, and the BC plaza, and somehow I ended up on an isolated part of Central Campus. At this moment, I suddenly came to my senses, still dreaming out of my control, and I became very ashamed and remorseful of what I had just done. I was embarassed and sad that I had done something so crazy. Next thing I knew,I wanted to find clothes ASAP but i had no idea where i could find some clothes without running into more people who would see me naked. So i walked into the nearest building, and I was in a standard lobby, with some couches and chairs. No one was around, and suddenly, clothes appeared on some of the seats, along with my purse. At this very moment, i became aware that I was dreaming. I then became worried that I would wake up, having come to this realization, so I tried a technique I had heard of before; when you feel you might wake up while lucidly dreaming, pretend you are spinning in circles. Thus I did, and although I thought I was going to wake up because I thought I could see some lightning coming from the real world, I managed to stay in the dream. As I was lucid, I decided to try and summon a friend. So basically I wasn't sure how I was going to do that, but i just kind of said their name and made some sort of hand gesture, but nothing happened. So i then decided that maybe to make things happen in your lucid dream, it might be necessary to do things as if they were real. So I grabbed my purse and pulled out my blackberry - identical to the one I own in reality - and tried to enter my friend's name so I could call him and ask him to come. But I couldnt type in his name. It would only let me enter my brother's name. At this point I became frustrated and unsure of whether or not I was really lucid. So I decided to test the reality of my surroundings. So I told myself, if I hit this wooden wall, and I am dreaming, my hand will go straight through. So I hit the wall, and in my dream, my hand was stopped by the wall. At this moment I began to freak out and I was seriously concerned that everything I was already glad had been just a dream was indeed a reality, and I would have to face their consequences. So I tried hitting the wall again, but to no avail. I was even afraid I could break my hand if I tried again. And thus, I ceased hitting the wall and in my moment of disappointment, my dream ended.
The first thing I remember is that I took all my clothes off in a moment of desperation, frustration, and a need for total freedom. I then proceeded to run outside, where I found myself on the Duke campus, and leaving my friends behind, I went streaking throughout campus, including the loop, and the BC plaza, and somehow I ended up on an isolated part of Central Campus. At this moment, I suddenly came to my senses, still dreaming out of my control, and I became very ashamed and remorseful of what I had just done. I was embarassed and sad that I had done something so crazy. Next thing I knew,I wanted to find clothes ASAP but i had no idea where i could find some clothes without running into more people who would see me naked. So i walked into the nearest building, and I was in a standard lobby, with some couches and chairs. No one was around, and suddenly, clothes appeared on some of the seats, along with my purse. At this very moment, i became aware that I was dreaming. I then became worried that I would wake up, having come to this realization, so I tried a technique I had heard of before; when you feel you might wake up while lucidly dreaming, pretend you are spinning in circles. Thus I did, and although I thought I was going to wake up because I thought I could see some lightning coming from the real world, I managed to stay in the dream. As I was lucid, I decided to try and summon a friend. So basically I wasn't sure how I was going to do that, but i just kind of said their name and made some sort of hand gesture, but nothing happened. So i then decided that maybe to make things happen in your lucid dream, it might be necessary to do things as if they were real. So I grabbed my purse and pulled out my blackberry - identical to the one I own in reality - and tried to enter my friend's name so I could call him and ask him to come. But I couldnt type in his name. It would only let me enter my brother's name. At this point I became frustrated and unsure of whether or not I was really lucid. So I decided to test the reality of my surroundings. So I told myself, if I hit this wooden wall, and I am dreaming, my hand will go straight through. So I hit the wall, and in my dream, my hand was stopped by the wall. At this moment I began to freak out and I was seriously concerned that everything I was already glad had been just a dream was indeed a reality, and I would have to face their consequences. So I tried hitting the wall again, but to no avail. I was even afraid I could break my hand if I tried again. And thus, I ceased hitting the wall and in my moment of disappointment, my dream ended.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Baby, Batman, Bucket, Booze, Bad
1) Wow so this one was fairly interesting. It started in a hospital, I'd just given birth to my son. I was still 18, still in college, and I had a child. I remember being emotionally distant from him, but mostly because I was overwhelmed that I had a kid. Still in college, how was I going to handle it? I couldn't even begin to think about it, but I remember thinking a lot about how my party days were over, and that I would hardly even have time to eat or breathe between studying and the baby. I remember my mother was there with me as we walked out of the hospital, she seemed supportive. I had the baby in a carrier, but he felt so heavy. I could barely lift the carrier. I am not sure what else happened, but at some point I was walking to meet some friends and introduce the baby. At some point I went into a building and when I walked out, I realized I had forgotten my baby. I went back in and was relieved to find him in the carrier when I went back. Then I remember walking on a boardwalk, and my friend asked me who the father was. I told him, and he asked if the guy knew. I said he did, and I was going to visit him later to meet the baby. We seemed to be on friendly terms I guess.
2) I had this dream right after I saw The Dark Knight. Midnight showing, of course. Mostly what I remember is that I was in a flesh-colored room with a table in it, and then I heard gun shots outside in the hall. I took cover under the table and tried to drag myself along the floor towards a corner of the room. I kept hearing gun shots and I remember I was very scared.
3) I woke up in my dream next to a young man. We were in what I guess was his apartment - it had green colored brick walls and lots of other colors from patterned fabrics and posters. I remembered I had to go somewhere so I woke up and went to what I guess was the equivalent of the Bryan Center (Duke's student center). I then realized there were a lot of small white tents that had popped up everywhere, even along the way to the Bryan Center, on the grass and etc. Somehow I found out that a lot of Indian people were dying spontaneously worldwide, and apparently it was customary for Hindu priests to come to the dead and embalm their bodies at the location of their death. Then I found out I was assigned to go around to each of the bodies, all surrounded by a group of priests, and hand out salt from a bucket to them. The salt, apparently, was the first step of the embalment, and it was poured on the faces of the dead. At one point I stopped to watch this being done, but a priest scolded me and told me not to watch the ceremony, just to keep walking and pass salt. When they were done with a body, they built a small white tent around it, for the body was supposed to rest at the location of death for seven days.
3) I woke up in my dream next to a young man. We were in what I guess was his apartment - it had green colored brick walls and lots of other colors from patterned fabrics and posters. I remembered I had to go somewhere so I woke up and went to what I guess was the equivalent of the Bryan Center (Duke's student center). I then realized there were a lot of small white tents that had popped up everywhere, even along the way to the Bryan Center, on the grass and etc. Somehow I found out that a lot of Indian people were dying spontaneously worldwide, and apparently it was customary for Hindu priests to come to the dead and embalm their bodies at the location of their death. Then I found out I was assigned to go around to each of the bodies, all surrounded by a group of priests, and hand out salt from a bucket to them. The salt, apparently, was the first step of the embalment, and it was poured on the faces of the dead. At one point I stopped to watch this being done, but a priest scolded me and told me not to watch the ceremony, just to keep walking and pass salt. When they were done with a body, they built a small white tent around it, for the body was supposed to rest at the location of death for seven days.
4) In this dream, I kept falling down from drunkenness as me and some Howard Hughes kids were walking, even though I had only had a few sips of wine in the dream. While we were walking around with my friends, I remembered binge drinking not the day before, but the day before yesterday (in the dream). Regardless, it didn't make sense for me to be so out of control and unbalanced - nor did it make sense that we were walking around with me like this in broad daylight. I remember it was a goofy but scary feeling, and I vividly remember a point where I was tripping down some steps in a plaza very slowly, and towards the end of my dream I fell over once again and was too drunk to get up. Then I laid down in the rain.
5) I woke up lying next to an old friend on my bed at home. We had fallen asleep talking and surprisingly my mother hadn't noticed or anything, so when I woke up he also woke up and we started talking, laughing, flirting. Then next thing you know, we are fooling around while I'm telling him I want to but we might get caught, and he says no way we will. Then we're at it when my mother comes in with some clean clothes to hang in my closet, and by instinct we try to hide our nakedness amongst the racks in my closet as my mom continues about her business, diverting her eyes and beginning to sternly scold us, without yelling, in a chilling voice, talking about how what I am doing is an act I should feel complete shame and sin for doing. Then I may have tried to say something as she walks away, clearly in a state of shock. At another point in my dream, I am in a car with my family and we are driving down a very busy city street. I see a man picking up his child from daycare. Later on we drive past a marquee that says "Don't forget to pick up James" and somehow I draw a connection between the two.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Parties and a Coma
1) Mirecourt friends and company were hanging out at an apartment. It belonged to some friends, who in reality do have an apartment, but the dream version was much more urban and contemporary looking. I remember we were talking, taking some shots of vodka, and I remember being remotely tipsy in my dream. Everyone was just kind of relaxed and chatting but I felt like dancing, so seeing as no one else wanted to come along, I walked over to a club where my current roommate's sorority was having a sponsored club night. I went to the door and saw her dressed in black, as a hostess, with a light blue crown with Roman letters, MX, on it, and some of her sorority sisters were dressed the same way. When I went up to talk to her she gave me a box of fake nails and asked me to show her how to put them on. I did, and asked her if she needed help, but she just said she had already gotten some other ones on. I don't remember what happened right after, but then I found myself in line at a gelato store, and I got some coconut gelato.
2) I woke up in my dream to find myself on a bed, with my mother and grandmother, possibly my father, standing over me. They were crying tears of joy, and soon after I discovered I had been in a coma for four years. I was now 24, and I don't know why but at age 20 I had gone into this coma. At the time, I was apparently also engaged. The problem was, I couldn't remember to who, but I didn't want to let anyone know or for whatever reason, I allowed my mother to fawn over me and get me ready for my wedding. I remember looking at a mirror for the first time after waking up and crying upon seeing how I had aged, even in those four years. I looked older, and I looked like an adult woman, no longer a college kid. As I prepared for my wedding, I was in shock, completely emotionless, not knowing how to start over.
2) I woke up in my dream to find myself on a bed, with my mother and grandmother, possibly my father, standing over me. They were crying tears of joy, and soon after I discovered I had been in a coma for four years. I was now 24, and I don't know why but at age 20 I had gone into this coma. At the time, I was apparently also engaged. The problem was, I couldn't remember to who, but I didn't want to let anyone know or for whatever reason, I allowed my mother to fawn over me and get me ready for my wedding. I remember looking at a mirror for the first time after waking up and crying upon seeing how I had aged, even in those four years. I looked older, and I looked like an adult woman, no longer a college kid. As I prepared for my wedding, I was in shock, completely emotionless, not knowing how to start over.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Viruses, Water and Trees
1) I had a dream where I discovered a virus that was present on every surface in the world, and thus far it was completely harmless. But I developed a way to see these viruses in live action, and I vividly remember watching them crawl all around people's bodies and out of their mouths, etc. As I observed them more, I realized a pattern where some of them would mutate but then would not be able to reproduce themselves, so they "died" off. But then I observed some survivors, and I realized every one of those viruses had the potential to quickly become harmful to humans.
2) In a fantastical water park, I was a musical guest along with three other girls in my quartet, and we performed a special act. The stage was set up as a tall cliff with a lagoon on the top and a larger one at the bottom - the performers, us four, were in the top lagoon and we were dressed like synchronized swimmers, while the audience was in swimsuits at the bottom lagoon. We were hooked up to a great sound system, and we played our music while half of our bodies were submerged in water. I originally began to play the violin but then traded with another girl, and I ended up playing these magical-sounding glass tubes. Our music was very environmental, airy, and mystical.
3) I was volunteering at an elementary school where my mom was substituting. I had to volunteer because it was a requirement for my medical studies. I remember needing to go to the bathroom and getting locked into the bathroom. I also remember watching a music class.
4) Some friends and I were on a trip somewhere, and while we were eating in the dining hall, about half of the people in there became flesh-eating zombies. I vaguely remembered having been in a situation like it before, so I knew how to dodge them and my friends and I escaped into an adjacent room. All of a sudden, however, zombies showed up in the room, but this time they didn't attack us immediately. The king and queen of the zombies came in and the king demanded we help them pick the nicest piece of jewelry for his queen out of a selection he brought in, but he said we couldn't steal any of it and if we did and tried to get away, an alarm would ring and we would be killed. Remembering how to escape, I decided I may as well try and escape and steal something. So I chose a beautiful necklace made of many blue stones, and snuck it in my pocket as I pretended to show the queen another piece. Then in a moment of distraction, I escaped into a room I remembered from before, and I found another man who had also escaped. Soon after, however, another zombie (or someone on their side) showed up and told us we were screwed. At that moment we ran out the door, set off the alarm, but managed to get into a van and drive off before the zombies could get to us, and we left them in the distance. Thinking we were safe, we drove to a friend's house by the river and walked to the river. The river was one of the clearest rivers I had ever seen in my life - even clearer than pool water, and there was nothing but a light blue bottom. It was sparkling in the sun. Everyone then decided to get in the water, but I saw rain coming and possibly lightning so I decided to go in. I walked into a bathroom and found a guy friend of mine in there, sitting on the toilet reading a newspaper. I walked back out, took all my clothes except my bottoms off, and walked in again, and tried to seduce the young man. He resisted, and said we couldn't do this because he was not interested in me, and I said that was OK because it was just going to be a one-time, no strings attached hook up. But then we heard screaming outside because our friends saw the zombies coming. So we went outside, and I remembered zombies were scared of water. So I made everyone get a cup and fill it with water, and we waited for them to come.
4) I don't remember the beginning of this dream, but at some point I was sitting on the main quad of a half-imaginary university, and it was fall. We had many visitors and they were curious to see the campus. An old couple approached me and asked me what kind of trees there were. I remember saying they were cedar, pine, and juniper. Then there was a tree they pointed to that I could not identify. Then I remember sitting on the grass in the main quad with a bunch of logs, and I was sawing them in half with a double sided saw. People smiled at me as I walked by. I remember the smell of the wood. At some other point in my dream, my mother drove me to a grocery store, and my brother was also present. At another point, I remember being naked and someone walking in on me, and me screaming "GET OUT!"
2) In a fantastical water park, I was a musical guest along with three other girls in my quartet, and we performed a special act. The stage was set up as a tall cliff with a lagoon on the top and a larger one at the bottom - the performers, us four, were in the top lagoon and we were dressed like synchronized swimmers, while the audience was in swimsuits at the bottom lagoon. We were hooked up to a great sound system, and we played our music while half of our bodies were submerged in water. I originally began to play the violin but then traded with another girl, and I ended up playing these magical-sounding glass tubes. Our music was very environmental, airy, and mystical.
3) I was volunteering at an elementary school where my mom was substituting. I had to volunteer because it was a requirement for my medical studies. I remember needing to go to the bathroom and getting locked into the bathroom. I also remember watching a music class.
4) Some friends and I were on a trip somewhere, and while we were eating in the dining hall, about half of the people in there became flesh-eating zombies. I vaguely remembered having been in a situation like it before, so I knew how to dodge them and my friends and I escaped into an adjacent room. All of a sudden, however, zombies showed up in the room, but this time they didn't attack us immediately. The king and queen of the zombies came in and the king demanded we help them pick the nicest piece of jewelry for his queen out of a selection he brought in, but he said we couldn't steal any of it and if we did and tried to get away, an alarm would ring and we would be killed. Remembering how to escape, I decided I may as well try and escape and steal something. So I chose a beautiful necklace made of many blue stones, and snuck it in my pocket as I pretended to show the queen another piece. Then in a moment of distraction, I escaped into a room I remembered from before, and I found another man who had also escaped. Soon after, however, another zombie (or someone on their side) showed up and told us we were screwed. At that moment we ran out the door, set off the alarm, but managed to get into a van and drive off before the zombies could get to us, and we left them in the distance. Thinking we were safe, we drove to a friend's house by the river and walked to the river. The river was one of the clearest rivers I had ever seen in my life - even clearer than pool water, and there was nothing but a light blue bottom. It was sparkling in the sun. Everyone then decided to get in the water, but I saw rain coming and possibly lightning so I decided to go in. I walked into a bathroom and found a guy friend of mine in there, sitting on the toilet reading a newspaper. I walked back out, took all my clothes except my bottoms off, and walked in again, and tried to seduce the young man. He resisted, and said we couldn't do this because he was not interested in me, and I said that was OK because it was just going to be a one-time, no strings attached hook up. But then we heard screaming outside because our friends saw the zombies coming. So we went outside, and I remembered zombies were scared of water. So I made everyone get a cup and fill it with water, and we waited for them to come.
4) I don't remember the beginning of this dream, but at some point I was sitting on the main quad of a half-imaginary university, and it was fall. We had many visitors and they were curious to see the campus. An old couple approached me and asked me what kind of trees there were. I remember saying they were cedar, pine, and juniper. Then there was a tree they pointed to that I could not identify. Then I remember sitting on the grass in the main quad with a bunch of logs, and I was sawing them in half with a double sided saw. People smiled at me as I walked by. I remember the smell of the wood. At some other point in my dream, my mother drove me to a grocery store, and my brother was also present. At another point, I remember being naked and someone walking in on me, and me screaming "GET OUT!"
Friday, June 27, 2008
Games with my head
A few dreams to catch up on...
1) My mother,brother, random invented male character and I checked into a hotel. It generally felt like a road trip, until my mom handed me a key and said "well guys, here is the key to you guys' room" with a smile to both me and the guy. Feeling a little weirded out by this, I brushed it off as a joke and followed the guy to the room and he stopped at the door, adding to my discomfort. He then asked me if I was ready for tonight, and seeing my confusion he went ahead and opened the door to reveal a huge room. The partial view we had from the door was an entire fully equipped private gym, and the rest of this area of the room was composed of many different kinds of black massage machines. Then he told me one of them was called the "chocolate chip massage" and you placed chocolate chips in it, and then they were melted and massaged onto your body. He asked me if I would use it with him and in disgust I yelled no and asked him what was wrong with him. At this point he asked me "what's wrong sweetheart" and proceeded to tell me that night was going to be a very special first night together as a married couple. Then I began to freak out screaming I wasn't married to him and that that had only been a weird dream I had had and that he was crazy, and he insisted we had married and the dream I had of our wedding, along with others of his proposal and dates which I swore I had only had dreams about, were in reality true events. So I was married to him, even though I wasn't even attracted to him in the slightest.
2) I felt very sick in my dream, in addition to feeling very sad. It was very psychosomatic. I went to Morgan because I was feeling so bad and he held me and told me to go get some medicine (Benadryl, I think). Then I walked around my high school looking for someone who might have some. Then I found my old physic teacher, Mrs. Ingle, in her room. She asked me what was wrong and said I didn't look so good. I told her I felt sick and she asked me to pass her her purse, which in the dream looked like a toolbox. She then asked me what was wrong, and I told her I was sad.
3) I had a dream where I ran a test similar to the one I was supposed to do in lab the next day, and I got the data back and it was exactly what I didn't want to happen. I also remember seeing my Howard Hughes roommate pipetting liquids.
4) My friends and I were having a good time in some random girl's house, a mutual friend of ours. Then we heard a warning for a flood, and we all jumped in Doug's car and evacuated to the nearest aiport.
1) My mother,brother, random invented male character and I checked into a hotel. It generally felt like a road trip, until my mom handed me a key and said "well guys, here is the key to you guys' room" with a smile to both me and the guy. Feeling a little weirded out by this, I brushed it off as a joke and followed the guy to the room and he stopped at the door, adding to my discomfort. He then asked me if I was ready for tonight, and seeing my confusion he went ahead and opened the door to reveal a huge room. The partial view we had from the door was an entire fully equipped private gym, and the rest of this area of the room was composed of many different kinds of black massage machines. Then he told me one of them was called the "chocolate chip massage" and you placed chocolate chips in it, and then they were melted and massaged onto your body. He asked me if I would use it with him and in disgust I yelled no and asked him what was wrong with him. At this point he asked me "what's wrong sweetheart" and proceeded to tell me that night was going to be a very special first night together as a married couple. Then I began to freak out screaming I wasn't married to him and that that had only been a weird dream I had had and that he was crazy, and he insisted we had married and the dream I had of our wedding, along with others of his proposal and dates which I swore I had only had dreams about, were in reality true events. So I was married to him, even though I wasn't even attracted to him in the slightest.
2) I felt very sick in my dream, in addition to feeling very sad. It was very psychosomatic. I went to Morgan because I was feeling so bad and he held me and told me to go get some medicine (Benadryl, I think). Then I walked around my high school looking for someone who might have some. Then I found my old physic teacher, Mrs. Ingle, in her room. She asked me what was wrong and said I didn't look so good. I told her I felt sick and she asked me to pass her her purse, which in the dream looked like a toolbox. She then asked me what was wrong, and I told her I was sad.
3) I had a dream where I ran a test similar to the one I was supposed to do in lab the next day, and I got the data back and it was exactly what I didn't want to happen. I also remember seeing my Howard Hughes roommate pipetting liquids.
4) My friends and I were having a good time in some random girl's house, a mutual friend of ours. Then we heard a warning for a flood, and we all jumped in Doug's car and evacuated to the nearest aiport.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Doctors and Jello Shots
I can't remember where my dream started but it contained the following sections, in no particular order:
I was preparing a presentation or slideshow of some sort, and it was an assignment for a grade. I spent about 3 hours on it as soon as I got home from school because I wanted to do something fun later that night so I had to get it done. Then I clicked "save" and checked my email or something. I then remembered to go back and check something, and I found out I hadn't saved anything at all. My little brother then asked me if I had saved it in the special format, which I hadn't, and then said to me there was nothing I could do about it then. So, I was very angry and frustrated.
On another occasion, I was typing up a recipe for jello shots on the computer to post up on facebook or some other public profile. Then I realized Morgan was behind me because after I entered part of the recipe he told me I needed to correct an amount I had entered.
Then I found myself in a big lecture - I have a feeling I was in my first year of medical school. My professor finished her talk and I went to meet her afterwards. She had sprawled out on a table a bunch of vintage jewelry she was trying to sell, of which I remember wanting a pin that looked like a gold tree branch. The professor carried her small baby pet monkey on a little chain with a pedestal around her neck. I think its name was Dojo.
I was preparing a presentation or slideshow of some sort, and it was an assignment for a grade. I spent about 3 hours on it as soon as I got home from school because I wanted to do something fun later that night so I had to get it done. Then I clicked "save" and checked my email or something. I then remembered to go back and check something, and I found out I hadn't saved anything at all. My little brother then asked me if I had saved it in the special format, which I hadn't, and then said to me there was nothing I could do about it then. So, I was very angry and frustrated.
On another occasion, I was typing up a recipe for jello shots on the computer to post up on facebook or some other public profile. Then I realized Morgan was behind me because after I entered part of the recipe he told me I needed to correct an amount I had entered.
Then I found myself in a big lecture - I have a feeling I was in my first year of medical school. My professor finished her talk and I went to meet her afterwards. She had sprawled out on a table a bunch of vintage jewelry she was trying to sell, of which I remember wanting a pin that looked like a gold tree branch. The professor carried her small baby pet monkey on a little chain with a pedestal around her neck. I think its name was Dojo.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I wished for a dream
Well, looks like I did dream.
My dream was in two parts. At first I was shadowing surgeons at an unidentified hospital for the summer, and my parents came for an open house, with my little brother. I remember something about them becoming slightly upset with someone and not having that great of a time, but reassuring me that they were very proud (at least my mother did).
The second part of my dream involved me preparing for someone to come over to what must have been my own private apartment. Whoever it was that was coming, I can't remember who, was definitely my lover of sorts because I spent most of my dream preparing my bedroom for special privacy. I made the bed, I organized the pillows, I put some nice clothes and perfume on, and I remember feeling very excited about the upcoming sex. The final step was the closing the blinds, but before I did that I remember looking outside the window and seeing it was the early afternoon and the sun was shining brightly on the street. There was a group of children playing, and I remember in particular seeing a hippie-looking young teenage girl, a blonde, wearing a red, flowy blouse and laughing as she played with a large red ball.
My dream was in two parts. At first I was shadowing surgeons at an unidentified hospital for the summer, and my parents came for an open house, with my little brother. I remember something about them becoming slightly upset with someone and not having that great of a time, but reassuring me that they were very proud (at least my mother did).
The second part of my dream involved me preparing for someone to come over to what must have been my own private apartment. Whoever it was that was coming, I can't remember who, was definitely my lover of sorts because I spent most of my dream preparing my bedroom for special privacy. I made the bed, I organized the pillows, I put some nice clothes and perfume on, and I remember feeling very excited about the upcoming sex. The final step was the closing the blinds, but before I did that I remember looking outside the window and seeing it was the early afternoon and the sun was shining brightly on the street. There was a group of children playing, and I remember in particular seeing a hippie-looking young teenage girl, a blonde, wearing a red, flowy blouse and laughing as she played with a large red ball.
Friday, June 20, 2008
life hasnt been a dream
It looks like it has been 2 weeks since I reported a dream. I've been busy here in durham with my job and friends and I've had other things trouble my mind that have blocked my dreaming. But there has been one, only one dream this week that I seem to remember.
I don't know who it was but someone had an accident and their finger was cut off. I remember trying to stop their bleeding and preserve their finger, while calling 911 and driving to the hospital at the same time. I remember I wanted to let them know what happened so they could be ready for us when we got there.I vaguely remember running around inside the hospital.
I hope tonight will bring me a dream.
I don't know who it was but someone had an accident and their finger was cut off. I remember trying to stop their bleeding and preserve their finger, while calling 911 and driving to the hospital at the same time. I remember I wanted to let them know what happened so they could be ready for us when we got there.I vaguely remember running around inside the hospital.
I hope tonight will bring me a dream.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Childhood, Memories, Sex
A few dreams to report from the past few days.
I have been watching too much Grey's Anatomy. I had a dream where I was an intern at a hospital, and I'd just finished a really long, over 24 hour, shift, and I was eager to get home. But on my way out I happened to be holding one of my most cherished stuffed animals from my childhood, a little calf. Her name is Muca. Anyway on my way out there was a little girl with her nanny. Upon seeing my toy, she seemed really excited by it so I thought it would be cute to let her see it up closer and to let her pet it. But before I knew it she snatched it out of my hands, and said "now it's mine." I then told her it wasn't, and she needed to give it back, cause it belonged to me. The girl refused and I looked to her nanny for some support, who in turn just shrugged at me and told me she couldn't do anything about it. That certainly ticked me off some more so then I told the girl she needed to give it back immediately. The nanny then interrupted and once again told me there was nothing I could do, it belonged to the girl now. At this point the little girl began taunting me with "it's mine, it's mine, it's mine!" Then I completely lost my temper. I turned to the girl and yelled, "Shut up you little girl and give it back right now!"At that point, the nanny looked at me, completely outraged for yelling so cruelly to a little girl. She then exclaimed "EXCUSE ME! How could you talk to a little girl like that?! You had no right. I need to speak to your supervisor right now. Take me to her right now! I'm going to sue you...." So then I spent the rest of my dream looking for my supervisor all around the hospital, pissed, knowing the nanny couldn't do anything, and on the way, I saw a few random people around the hospital.
In another dream, my boyfriend and I went to Galveston Beach to eat seafood. We were in a restaurant when my friend Alyssa showed up. We were excited to see her we asked her to sit with us. Then my old waiter friend Kegan showed up, apparently he was a server at the place, and he chilled out with us for a bit. Then on the way out of the restaurant, I ran into an old high school friend, Will B. I asked him what he was doing there and said he was enjoying a bit of his summer at the beach with his mom. Then he added my ex boyfriend was driving bicycle taxis now and he had just dropped him off. When I looked across the street, there he was.
The next day I had a dream where a guy was chilling out with me at my house, and we ended up showering together (while my parents were in the house, too). Then when we got out of the shower he started feeling me up, and I told him I didn't want to keep going. I couldn't. Then he said, "you're right, I can't do this," and he proceeded to tell me he had lost his virginity, and to whom. Then we went into my room in towels and my dad walked in and told us dinner was ready, and totally didn't realize what was going on. I think he even talked to us a little bit.
I have been watching too much Grey's Anatomy. I had a dream where I was an intern at a hospital, and I'd just finished a really long, over 24 hour, shift, and I was eager to get home. But on my way out I happened to be holding one of my most cherished stuffed animals from my childhood, a little calf. Her name is Muca. Anyway on my way out there was a little girl with her nanny. Upon seeing my toy, she seemed really excited by it so I thought it would be cute to let her see it up closer and to let her pet it. But before I knew it she snatched it out of my hands, and said "now it's mine." I then told her it wasn't, and she needed to give it back, cause it belonged to me. The girl refused and I looked to her nanny for some support, who in turn just shrugged at me and told me she couldn't do anything about it. That certainly ticked me off some more so then I told the girl she needed to give it back immediately. The nanny then interrupted and once again told me there was nothing I could do, it belonged to the girl now. At this point the little girl began taunting me with "it's mine, it's mine, it's mine!" Then I completely lost my temper. I turned to the girl and yelled, "Shut up you little girl and give it back right now!"At that point, the nanny looked at me, completely outraged for yelling so cruelly to a little girl. She then exclaimed "EXCUSE ME! How could you talk to a little girl like that?! You had no right. I need to speak to your supervisor right now. Take me to her right now! I'm going to sue you...." So then I spent the rest of my dream looking for my supervisor all around the hospital, pissed, knowing the nanny couldn't do anything, and on the way, I saw a few random people around the hospital.
In another dream, my boyfriend and I went to Galveston Beach to eat seafood. We were in a restaurant when my friend Alyssa showed up. We were excited to see her we asked her to sit with us. Then my old waiter friend Kegan showed up, apparently he was a server at the place, and he chilled out with us for a bit. Then on the way out of the restaurant, I ran into an old high school friend, Will B. I asked him what he was doing there and said he was enjoying a bit of his summer at the beach with his mom. Then he added my ex boyfriend was driving bicycle taxis now and he had just dropped him off. When I looked across the street, there he was.
The next day I had a dream where a guy was chilling out with me at my house, and we ended up showering together (while my parents were in the house, too). Then when we got out of the shower he started feeling me up, and I told him I didn't want to keep going. I couldn't. Then he said, "you're right, I can't do this," and he proceeded to tell me he had lost his virginity, and to whom. Then we went into my room in towels and my dad walked in and told us dinner was ready, and totally didn't realize what was going on. I think he even talked to us a little bit.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Malls, deserts, snow, everything
Ihaven't posted in a while, but not because I haven't had any dreams but because I kept forgetting what they were. Here we go then.
A few nights ago...
I was in large mall parking lot and I was waiting or looking for someone, maybe my dad or some friends, maybe both. I ended up walking in and around the mall. I ended up finding a Peruvian food stand and I ordered some food, which was alright but I suggested to the chef that they stick to cooking a Peruvian style of chicken instead of trying to cover so many dishes. The chef then became very upset with me and told me I had no right to make that suggestion. Then I remember talking to my dad who confirmed he thought that stand was pretty bad.
The night after I found myself dreaming about being on a trip with my mom and brother. At one point we had to get on a triple decker train, but my brother had to go to the bathroom before we boarded. Then we boarded without him and the train left without him. Then I remember being in a desert, walking around with my mom and Michael and maybe my brother, apparently on some sort of tour. We walked around a bunch of plateaus and mesas. But we were alone, tired, and didn't have any water. But then Michael found an abandoned stand and somehow found ice cream in it. My mom didn't have any but I did. Then we kept walking around and we reached a rocky stretch of land but then we found a flattened out stretch of land with a velvet rope lining the edge.
Last night was one of the weirdest dreams of all. I don't know everything that occurred or the order. I remember there was at some point snow. I had a cottage in the woods during winter. A group of kids that I went to high school with was going around the neighborhood door to door asking for donations for a charity. At some point I baked a chocolate cake and maybe gave it to an old friend. I also went to my high school and worked out with the basketball team. I remember seeing a bunch of people I hadn't seen in a while. I don't know why I saw the people I did. Weird.
A few nights ago...
I was in large mall parking lot and I was waiting or looking for someone, maybe my dad or some friends, maybe both. I ended up walking in and around the mall. I ended up finding a Peruvian food stand and I ordered some food, which was alright but I suggested to the chef that they stick to cooking a Peruvian style of chicken instead of trying to cover so many dishes. The chef then became very upset with me and told me I had no right to make that suggestion. Then I remember talking to my dad who confirmed he thought that stand was pretty bad.
The night after I found myself dreaming about being on a trip with my mom and brother. At one point we had to get on a triple decker train, but my brother had to go to the bathroom before we boarded. Then we boarded without him and the train left without him. Then I remember being in a desert, walking around with my mom and Michael and maybe my brother, apparently on some sort of tour. We walked around a bunch of plateaus and mesas. But we were alone, tired, and didn't have any water. But then Michael found an abandoned stand and somehow found ice cream in it. My mom didn't have any but I did. Then we kept walking around and we reached a rocky stretch of land but then we found a flattened out stretch of land with a velvet rope lining the edge.
Last night was one of the weirdest dreams of all. I don't know everything that occurred or the order. I remember there was at some point snow. I had a cottage in the woods during winter. A group of kids that I went to high school with was going around the neighborhood door to door asking for donations for a charity. At some point I baked a chocolate cake and maybe gave it to an old friend. I also went to my high school and worked out with the basketball team. I remember seeing a bunch of people I hadn't seen in a while. I don't know why I saw the people I did. Weird.
Monday, May 26, 2008
Family and Death
The night before last I had a dream where I spent some time with my cousins in Peru. We pretty much did a bunch of sketchy teenage things and ate some food, and then went to a sketchy teenage party. It was a pretty cool college party. I remember eating some chicken and rice.
Last night I had a dream that some I knew died, and I thought it was my dad. I think I remember seeing him in a coffin. But then I realized my dad was still walking and around and alive after I went to the burial. At the burial I threw petals of multicolored flowers into the grave. It was strangely beautiful. I don't know who it was that died. I also remember hearing something about my ex boyfriend's new girlfriend. I don't know her, but I have wondered about her. In my dream, I heard her name.
What's weird about my death dream is that two girls died in a car accident early last night, very near my house. I didn't find out until this afternoon. My mom says a lot of people brought flowers to the place of the accident.
Last night I had a dream that some I knew died, and I thought it was my dad. I think I remember seeing him in a coffin. But then I realized my dad was still walking and around and alive after I went to the burial. At the burial I threw petals of multicolored flowers into the grave. It was strangely beautiful. I don't know who it was that died. I also remember hearing something about my ex boyfriend's new girlfriend. I don't know her, but I have wondered about her. In my dream, I heard her name.
What's weird about my death dream is that two girls died in a car accident early last night, very near my house. I didn't find out until this afternoon. My mom says a lot of people brought flowers to the place of the accident.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Dream Within a Dream
Last night I began my dreaming as a student who was attending a sort of blend between college and high school, and I was the last pick for the orchestra, but I was in. So everyone was getting to know each other when all of a sudden the director came out of his office and told everyone we had an hour to practice before chair placement auditions and then handed us the music. Everyone panicked and went to different classrooms to practice. I was freaking out and also went into a room to practice, but it took me forever to find a room. After playing a few notes I realized my violin sounded terrible. Then I went to find the director to tune it, and on the way there I broke my violin bow. At that point I "woke up" (in my dream still) and I was surrounded by the orchestra. I told them about my dream and they laughed.
At some later point in the dream I had to submit a proposal for a science project. Everyone's proposal was great except for mine, because I had forgotten to use some weird physics equation which was essential to the project. So the teacher asked me to do it again. I went off to the library and I cried in frustration. Then I remember focusing very hard on the equation and what it was talking about, and I figured out a new proposal, and went back and turned it in to my teacher.
Additionally, I had another dream during the night where I rode around in a homemade vehicle, and I had to find my brother somewhere in the city, and I ran into my cousins.
At some later point in the dream I had to submit a proposal for a science project. Everyone's proposal was great except for mine, because I had forgotten to use some weird physics equation which was essential to the project. So the teacher asked me to do it again. I went off to the library and I cried in frustration. Then I remember focusing very hard on the equation and what it was talking about, and I figured out a new proposal, and went back and turned it in to my teacher.
Additionally, I had another dream during the night where I rode around in a homemade vehicle, and I had to find my brother somewhere in the city, and I ran into my cousins.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Acne Nightmare
Before I went to sleep at Alyssa's house last night, we ended up talking about Accutane acne medicine.
I ended up having a dream (nightmare?) where I had some really intense acne all over my face when I woke up the next morning.
I ended up having a dream (nightmare?) where I had some really intense acne all over my face when I woke up the next morning.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Drunken Frat Party
Last night I had a dream where it was the last few days of college. My mom had come over to help me pack up my stuff, and then she'd gone to sleep at the hotel. Soon after my mom left my friend Alyssa and I collectively decided we wanted to get really drunk. So we walked around campus and ended up finding my friend Matt J., who was partying it up with his frat, which in reality is DKE but in the dream it was AEPi. So we when into some room where he was but we decided not to drink there because it looked sketchy. Then we talked to a very drunk Matt who said very few words. The girls who were also there also said very little, which made for a very awkward moment overall and Alyssa and I decided to leave, and then I decided to split and go pack some more things.
First few dreams
Here are some dreams I haven't posted yet. They get progressively more interesting.
I. For some reason, the Olsen twins invited me to some high-end fashion show. To get in I had to say I was with the Olsen twins and the security guard asked me what their names were. In my dream, I was apparently an idiot and said "Mary...and Kate" ... "oh wait, Ashley." Well I got in anyway and they took me around the show helping me pick out some ridiculously expensive things I could never afford and then they sent me out at the end of the show. At the door some cashier started ringing the items up and I had to stop and say I couldn't afford all the couture jewelry and stuff, so I picked one item out that I like the best and payed too much for it. Then I stepped out and I was like in a village market or something.
II. I was sitting in a classroom at Duke, which in reality does not exist, that was mostly gray colored and shaped like a semi circle, with long tables curving around with seats evenly spaced out behind them. I was sitting in class and my boyfriend came in, late, holding a rosemary chicken drumstick which he was eating, and it smelled delicious. It made me think of some chicken dish they used to have at my elementary school. So when class was over we went to the cafeteria for lunch to get me some chicken and low and behold the cafeteria was just like my elementary school one. I got in line, bought my chicken, went to sit down next to my boyfriend, and then hesitated and sat in the seat across from the empty one next to him to test him, and then his friend Derek came and sat in the spot, talking quite loudly and excitedly I might add. Then my high school principal came into the cafeteria and made some forgettable announcement.
III. All I remember about this dream is seeing my friend Alyssa laughing hysterically. And as weird it is to type this, especially following that sentence, at some point my dream took a different turn and by the end of it I was essentially doing what I guess was masturbating in my dream, although there wasn't a real-life motion attached to it. Please don't put the two together, as tempting as it may be for you.
IV. I was visiting some friend's house who doesn't exist in real life, but in the dream we were buds and he had a mansion in Colorado or something. So he essentially owned his own little ski town and his multiple cottages were connected through a trolley that ran alongside a canal built into his home. We rode on it and at some point decided to go swimming in the canal and all of a sudden I found myself going down a slide, which led to some imaginary famous press conference room in Japan. My boyfriend was there and we apparently were all of a sudden taking a trip there. My friend David S. showed up at some point and he was applying to get a job there so I showed him around or something because I was temporarily in access of the behind the scenes. Then I went to find my boyfriend and we ended up finding lodging in a hotel that had an integrated water park, so you had to ride slides and etc. to get to your room, which was awesome. Then at some point we were naked at the top of a slide and to our dismay we discovered some onlookers soon after. Then we slid down the slide and ended up in the press conference room.
V. So this one only makes sense because I had been watching TV on the couch before I fell asleep and I had seen a combination of crime investigation shows about murders, an animal planet show about zebras, and various news stations, which lulled me to sleep. The dream is as follows. First I realized I was in a reality TV show and competing against a group of adults. On some sort of first task we ended up having to go to Ted Kennedy's house and ask him about his tumor (with all due respect). Then we looked outside his window and realized he had a forest as a backyard, which wouldn't have been all that extraordinary if we hadn't heard a gun shot in the distance and then seen a herd of zebras run through the forest. But we didn't have time to pay attention to that because then a bat flew into the room. At first we thought it was a huge moth but then realized it was a bat, which then died but we never paid much attention to it because then one of the women competing in the reality show wanted to show me some special pills she had. After swallowing them, her voice became able to change into that of a different newscaster every ten seconds as she was talking. Then two gay guys also competing came out of the closet randomly.
I. For some reason, the Olsen twins invited me to some high-end fashion show. To get in I had to say I was with the Olsen twins and the security guard asked me what their names were. In my dream, I was apparently an idiot and said "Mary...and Kate" ... "oh wait, Ashley." Well I got in anyway and they took me around the show helping me pick out some ridiculously expensive things I could never afford and then they sent me out at the end of the show. At the door some cashier started ringing the items up and I had to stop and say I couldn't afford all the couture jewelry and stuff, so I picked one item out that I like the best and payed too much for it. Then I stepped out and I was like in a village market or something.
II. I was sitting in a classroom at Duke, which in reality does not exist, that was mostly gray colored and shaped like a semi circle, with long tables curving around with seats evenly spaced out behind them. I was sitting in class and my boyfriend came in, late, holding a rosemary chicken drumstick which he was eating, and it smelled delicious. It made me think of some chicken dish they used to have at my elementary school. So when class was over we went to the cafeteria for lunch to get me some chicken and low and behold the cafeteria was just like my elementary school one. I got in line, bought my chicken, went to sit down next to my boyfriend, and then hesitated and sat in the seat across from the empty one next to him to test him, and then his friend Derek came and sat in the spot, talking quite loudly and excitedly I might add. Then my high school principal came into the cafeteria and made some forgettable announcement.
III. All I remember about this dream is seeing my friend Alyssa laughing hysterically. And as weird it is to type this, especially following that sentence, at some point my dream took a different turn and by the end of it I was essentially doing what I guess was masturbating in my dream, although there wasn't a real-life motion attached to it. Please don't put the two together, as tempting as it may be for you.
IV. I was visiting some friend's house who doesn't exist in real life, but in the dream we were buds and he had a mansion in Colorado or something. So he essentially owned his own little ski town and his multiple cottages were connected through a trolley that ran alongside a canal built into his home. We rode on it and at some point decided to go swimming in the canal and all of a sudden I found myself going down a slide, which led to some imaginary famous press conference room in Japan. My boyfriend was there and we apparently were all of a sudden taking a trip there. My friend David S. showed up at some point and he was applying to get a job there so I showed him around or something because I was temporarily in access of the behind the scenes. Then I went to find my boyfriend and we ended up finding lodging in a hotel that had an integrated water park, so you had to ride slides and etc. to get to your room, which was awesome. Then at some point we were naked at the top of a slide and to our dismay we discovered some onlookers soon after. Then we slid down the slide and ended up in the press conference room.
V. So this one only makes sense because I had been watching TV on the couch before I fell asleep and I had seen a combination of crime investigation shows about murders, an animal planet show about zebras, and various news stations, which lulled me to sleep. The dream is as follows. First I realized I was in a reality TV show and competing against a group of adults. On some sort of first task we ended up having to go to Ted Kennedy's house and ask him about his tumor (with all due respect). Then we looked outside his window and realized he had a forest as a backyard, which wouldn't have been all that extraordinary if we hadn't heard a gun shot in the distance and then seen a herd of zebras run through the forest. But we didn't have time to pay attention to that because then a bat flew into the room. At first we thought it was a huge moth but then realized it was a bat, which then died but we never paid much attention to it because then one of the women competing in the reality show wanted to show me some special pills she had. After swallowing them, her voice became able to change into that of a different newscaster every ten seconds as she was talking. Then two gay guys also competing came out of the closet randomly.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
When I'm in the middle of a dream
Hello readers. In Christmas of 2007, a good friend at the time gave me a very nice journal he had purposely stolen through a White Elephant Exchange at a holiday party. As time has passed since then, it turns out we are no longer on the good terms we used to fall under and so until now, the journal had been largely unnoticed. Recently I decided it was about time I put it to good use. I was going to fill its pages with records of my dreams, every night that I could remember them.
That idea failed.
Although I have to admit defeat and surrender to technology, I just can't write in it every day with the ease I have with an online blog, where thoughts quickly become nicely typed words, and the journal is always at hand in the form of my laptop or Blackberry browser. It really is very paradoxical of me, a self-proclaimed romantic, but shoot. I must wave my white flag.
Don't worry, I'll try not to let the freedom of a keyboard make my entries as long and cluttered as my college paper drafts tend to be.
So from now on, I will share my dreams with the Internet, you, and in the future, myself. I guess when I dream something I can't really post, I'll go back to the poor tangible journal.
*for kicks, here's the first few entries I wrote:
5/12/08
It's been a while since I got this [the journal] as a "gift," as you may be able to say, by the dedication. But now I'm ready to put this to good use. Dream journal - begin. (Date goes by the day which preceded the night that the dream took place unless otherwise stated.)
5/10/08
I dreamt [no spell check on handwritten journals] an asteroid was supposed to hit the U.S. At the time I was at Duke for summer school/Howard Hughes and I decided that if I was to die by the asteroid it was fate so I didn't bother hiding. So as I walked outside I saw a big rock fall from the sky into a construction site next to Central Campus, which was deep. Deep enough for the rock to fall in and then bounce out, and back in. Nothing else seemed to happen. When I went back to my apartment I decided to go by my boyfriend's room and and see what he was up to. But as I stepped out the ground was covered in a fine green powder that smelled toxic - some sort of fallout. So I went back inside and I was directed by a student to a route that led me to my boyfriend's room from the inside. My recollection stops there.
That idea failed.
Although I have to admit defeat and surrender to technology, I just can't write in it every day with the ease I have with an online blog, where thoughts quickly become nicely typed words, and the journal is always at hand in the form of my laptop or Blackberry browser. It really is very paradoxical of me, a self-proclaimed romantic, but shoot. I must wave my white flag.
Don't worry, I'll try not to let the freedom of a keyboard make my entries as long and cluttered as my college paper drafts tend to be.
So from now on, I will share my dreams with the Internet, you, and in the future, myself. I guess when I dream something I can't really post, I'll go back to the poor tangible journal.
*for kicks, here's the first few entries I wrote:
5/12/08
It's been a while since I got this [the journal] as a "gift," as you may be able to say, by the dedication. But now I'm ready to put this to good use. Dream journal - begin. (Date goes by the day which preceded the night that the dream took place unless otherwise stated.)
5/10/08
I dreamt [no spell check on handwritten journals] an asteroid was supposed to hit the U.S. At the time I was at Duke for summer school/Howard Hughes and I decided that if I was to die by the asteroid it was fate so I didn't bother hiding. So as I walked outside I saw a big rock fall from the sky into a construction site next to Central Campus, which was deep. Deep enough for the rock to fall in and then bounce out, and back in. Nothing else seemed to happen. When I went back to my apartment I decided to go by my boyfriend's room and and see what he was up to. But as I stepped out the ground was covered in a fine green powder that smelled toxic - some sort of fallout. So I went back inside and I was directed by a student to a route that led me to my boyfriend's room from the inside. My recollection stops there.
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